Feeling kind of like Alice falling down the rabbit hole
into another world
a dream world
In my mind there's always these hallways
many doors
filled with the past
the could be's
the wants to happen
This crazy lady
she banged and screamed for years
trapped behind the door
it was old battered and evil looking
Some one opened the door
they heard her cries for help
now she wanders these halls
hair standing straight up
clothes torn and dirty
full of a nasty stench
She's not crazy, she's desperate
full of hope
still looking for help
looking for escape from the hell she was in
Who put her there
why was she trapped
what was in that room that made her
look to be so crazy
It's not cool having this crazy lady
wandering around in my head
she can be scary and annoying
anger builds
sadness creeps along the walls and into my soul
I'm not used to it
only voices whispers of noise
from beyond those doors
Now I hear the foot steps and doors slamming
doors opening with me being around the corner
fear of what she may unleash
hope in that here is help
But from a crazy lady?
I see the sadness in her eyes
I know it's there
she's not crazy
she was trapped
she needs a voice
she needs life!
Jamie,
ReplyDeleteThis is very powerful. You are doing some deep shadow work that revolves around the past. I understand because I have been going through such a passage myself. It can be intense when you open old doors that have been locked for a long time. The depth of emotion that can surface can knock you for a loop.
Remember to stay connected. Support during such a time of intense release and growth is so essential. Know that I love you and I'm here for you. You will emerge from this fiercely strong and oh so wise. Any time you need to talk with someone who will not judge the potent experience you are going through, you have my number. Never hesitate to call.
No... that woman is not crazy. She has been bound and shackled for far too long. She is raising her voice to be freed.